today has been stressful and i just came home before class to try and get a grip. For one thing i found out the test i took saturday determines whether i can continue here or not - and i didn’t know that. Would i have studied more if i’d known? Certainly would have freaked out more. The other thing is that at the test i think i lost my driver’s license - don’t remember them giving it back to me afterwards. If i don’t have the license and will have to go thru lots to trauma to get it back. Like to say accepted this with calm but the truth is i just came home and ignored the whole thing for 3 hours by watching egyptian pyramid stuff on the history channel.

Do you get credit for not freaking out if you’re determinedly just ignoring a situation? And what’s wrong with me that i can see at least a small upside to everything? I was just thinking, ‘if i lose my job, i can do this every day…’. At least until the cable runs out!